One month in PRG

Yesterday it was exactly one month, since I came back to Prague. Unbelievable. I didn't manage to go with my friends for a beer. Something is awfully wrong here.

CNN today

It is not so long ago when I wrote about Czechoslovakia and how I don’t mind if people still use this name. Now I also have to say that I hate when media refer to my country as Czechoslovakia. I am extremely sensitive to it. Today it was the last day when I checked CNN news. I cannot trust them anymore. I found out they are just a bunch of losers. First, they inform about non-existing country and second they call it a shock, what happened. Come on, it was expected for several months that this guy will resign. I am really MAAAD.


Source: http://edition.cnn.com/2005/WORLD/europe/09/24/czech.gross.reut/
index.html
(I hope they will corect it, I sent them an e-mail explaining what losers they are :)

New job

On Monday I start a new job. It is internship in sales department of a cosmetic company (most probably just playing with Excel sheets). I am really excited about it and looking forward. I feel like a small kid. New people, new environment, new experience, new challenges... I should remember this feeling, because I am sure that in one week I will be bitching like crazy about the company. My friend was working there some time ago and she hated it. Hopefully I will be in different department :) Anyway, I need money for my trip on Easter and they pay well. I will do everything to go back to Yerevan. I simply love that place.

Summer time

When I look out of the window it is quite obvious that the summer is over, but I don't mind that much. Still I had a chance to enjoy two weeks of a typical Czech summer. After last year when I missed the season completely it was truly refreshing.
What I managed to do in those two weeks back home:
- Go to swimming pool and get my back sunburned
- Eat all different kind of berries
- Stay whole day in the forest and pick mushrooms
- See a typical summer storm
Now the autumn can start :)

Student life

Instead of staying in bed I had to go to the university again to speak with the vice-dean. He gave me time to pass the last exam till February, but I will have to pay the tuition. This will hurt. It costs a lot to be stupid :) Well, everything is better than to be fired from school :)))
As our faculty transfers to a new ECTS system I bought the new syllabus guide. It is unbelievable. They changed the IDs of all subjects and also re-named the subgroups of subjects. Including the new registration software I can expect to have a lot of fun with all this. Plus I found out that I cannot do the Minor I wanted – Development studies. It is not available for the new system.
I believe that this ECTS system has a lot of advantages and it will be really cool to have it. But this year will be a big mess. Why cannot all faculties transfer in one semester? Aaaargh.

Successes and failures

Now I believe that it is not in my destiny to ever graduate from the university. I didn't go to the final exam today. I just went there to show them official medical report to prove I am sick. This time it is not a cheat but I am really ill :) So all those days spent with books were just wasting of time. My chances are 50% to have another attempt and 50% to be fired from university this month. Maybe it is because of the pills and temperature, but I don't care that much as I probably should.
Anyway I consider today as a great day. I met so many people :)
First I met AIESEC alumni (I will not say his name). He had even worse day than me. He was fired from the very last exam for the third time (yes, it was Economics). Most probably this is “game over” for him. (Now you see why I didn’t say who he is).
Five minutes later I met Standa (Czech ex-MCP). It seems he passed entrance exam for post-graduate course. Maybe he will be our teacher soon.
I also met Mirek, another AIESEC person so we had a lot to speak about.
Then I met Víťa (Armenian guy). He passed the same exam as I supposed to do today. Wow. He also introduced me to another friend who is half Russian and half Armenian. We spent some two hours all together. I had a good time with them. I am really happy that at least one of us is Bc. already and they were also very supportive to me.
Last the biggest surprise of the day – I met Dan (AIESEC LCVP 01-02) from Ostrava. And it was not at the university or in the city centre; it was just 100 meters from the place where I live. He moved to Prague and works just next to my house. Dan was one of my best AIESEC friends (I mean from other LCs). We didn’t have much time to talk but we exchanged phone numbers so hopefully we will see each other soon.
Yes, it was a great day, though it made me a real loser maybe (hopefully not). I will have to wait several days for the decision if I will be still student or not.

Blogosphere

I really enjoy reading other blogs lately, especially of people that I don't know. It is interesting to see the different approaches to them. Some are true personal diaries, some are more fun oriented, some have another special purpose that I didn't get. What I like the most now is "100 things about me". Google it yourself. Really interesting, how people describe themsleves and what they find important. Once I will have more time I will do it myself too.

Zemfira rocks

Zemfira is a Russian singer. I really really really love some of her songs. I was listening to this one for three hours today. It made my day. Music always gives me power to see life more positive. This song is about being love which I don't feel now, but nothing is perfect :) It is so special to me because it was the first Russian song, where I actually understood everything and not just isolated words. Do you remember the feeling when you study foreign language and you notice such a huge progress, a real break point? Excitement, right?
Translation and more info is available at http://dime32.dizinc.com/~russmus/bands-zemfira.htm

Земфира - Искала

я искала тебя
годами долгими
искала тебя
дворами темными
в журналах, в кино
среди друзей
в день, когда нашла
с ума сошла

п.
ты совсем как во сне
совсем как в альбомах,
где я рисовала тебя гуашью

Дальше были звонки
Ночные
Больше
Слезы
нервы
любовь
И стрелки в Польше
Дети
но не мои
Старые зазнобы
Куришь
каждые пять
Мы устали оба

п.
ты совсем как во сне
совсем как в альбомах,
где я рисовала тебя гуашью

годами долгими
ночами темными
годами долгими

п.
ты совсем как во сне
совсем как в альбомах,
где я рисовала тебя гуашью

п.
ты совсем как во сне
совсем как в альбомах,
где я рисовала тебя гуашью

я искала тебя
годами долгими
искала тебя
дворами темными
в журналах, в кино
годами долгими
искала тебя
ночами-чами-чами-чами-чами...

Tired

I am tired of the life I have right now. I want to pass the exam and get rid of the feeling that every minute I don’t study is wasting of time. I want to go to lessons, have a job, read some interesting book and in the evening go out with my friends and chitchat.
Right now I am stressed as never before because I am really not ready for the exam. Yes, more than before the Statistics exam. I am so stressed that I spent whole day lying on the sofa and staring up to the ceiling. So, now you now.

Nightmare

I had a really bad nightmare. It woke me up some four times during the night. The story was very simple: Hacker attacked my blog and sent some random posts that I didn’t like. I spent whole day deleting the crap.
What does the dream mean? Am I addicted to blogging? Should I start some therapy?

Crazy girls = crazy ideas

It all started by invitation to chair a national conference in Bulgaria. It finished with a plan of organizing small reunion in Armenia during the Easter holiday. You don’t see any connection? Let me explain: I had a MSN chat with Megan from Bulgaria today. We met each other in Yerevan when she was MCP and I came as a CEEDer. We shared room, food, gossips... She was my best roommate ever. And now, it seems we will see each other again. It is still 6 months till Easter, but anyway, I am so exciteeeeeeeeeeeed :) I really hope this will work out. To see all the people and all those favourite places...
Too bad you can put only words in the blog. I wish I could upload a melody that you could really understand how I feel now :)
BTW I rejected the offer to go to Bulgaria

I was born in Czechoslovakia

This country doesn’t exist anymore. Strange. It is almost 13 years when the Czech Republic was born. Sometimes it seems the world hasn’t notice that. Abroad I am usually introduced as Jana from Czechoslovakia. I don’t mind. At least in former Soviet Union people like Czechoslovakia. We had this “Friendship forever” between our countries (Se Sovětským svazem na věčné časy.)
But among young people Czechoslovakia is known for another thing. Do you remember “The American pie” movie? There was this Nadya from Czechoslovakia - hot chick, easy to get. Oops. It creates certain expectations :) (which are completely wrong of course :))))))) ).

Hmm, originally I wanted to speak about something else. It came up to my mind on Monday when I included a Slovak guy in the Czech delegation at IC. In AIESEC we don’t care whether you’re Czech or Slovak. In LC Prague (my home LC) there are maybe 1/3 of members from Slovakia. They are not foreigners. Every year there are some Slovaks at the MC and they are not considered as international members. They are our brothers. We were born in the same country. We understand each other, though we speak different languages. This year the Czechoslovak cooperation went even further when there was a Czech guy selected for Slovak MC. We keep the Czechoslovak spirit alive.
I am proud that I was born in this country, because we managed to split without any war or other conflict. Others should get inspiration from us. It is possible to solve disagreements without violence. Maybe we are one of the least religious nations of the world, but we don’t kill our brothers.

"Faith is what holds us together while religion tears us apart."
Angie Worth

Have you seen the video from IC?

http://ic2005india.org/video1.php
Czech Republic is Country 17. I really love this. It is not just Czech delegation performing the roll-call, but also all nomads around the world joined them. Peter (China), Chico (UAE), Jirka (Slovakia), Danka (CC)... AIESEC in the Czech Republic is really a big family.
It reminded me all foreigners that wore the red ice-hockey jerseys (MC people) at International Congress in the past years. What happened to them? Do you sometimes think of them? Karthik, Alvaro, Matt, Marie-France, Srini, Maria? Where are they now? What are they doing? Are they happy? I know about Maria from her blog. Matt sent e-mail recently, but the rest? And what about all the past trainees? OMG, it is really sad to be a nomad sometimes. Your friends leave your life too often.

Solnitchka is back

Today it is two weeks since I left Tajikistan. Time runs fast.

I feel sad that I had to leave so early.
I feel happy that I didn’t have to stay there longer.
I feel happy that I am back home.
I feel sad that there won’t be any new nomad adventure for at least nine months.

Strange thing is that all these feelings somehow neutralize and I don’t feel anything. Last year when I was leaving Armenia and returning home I had to get drunk just to be able to get on the plane and leave. I was crying that I had to leave all my friends and later I was really touched when I saw Prague from the window of the airplane (yes, tears were in my eyes again).
This year it was like: hmm, OK, I’m back in Prague. Well, I know there is a significant difference:
Yerevan >>> Prague ... 4 hours
Dushanbe >>> Prague ... 27 hours ... just because there is no direct flight and I had to spend 13 hours in Munich, Germany and then go by bus. When I came to the Czech Republic at 2:30 a.m. I just couldn’t feel the right excitement.